“To
grow, to discover, we need involvement which is something I experience
everyday, sometimes good, sometimes frustrating.”
- Bruce Lee
Feeling down this week. There is a situation in my hula group with one of the newer students, and I
think her behavior will force me to quit the group. I am deeply saddened and
extremely angry with this. I love dancing hula, and I have been in this group
for more than five years. To leave because someone is uncivil and disrespectful
is disappointing.
This situation has caused a
lot of stress and agony. My blood pressure has been elevated and have not been sleeping very well. I have been
very sad, angry, and moody as a result of this.This week, only after two days
of crying, anger, meditation, and introspection, I have finally returned to my happy normal self.
In my introspection,
moving on may be the best move for me. If one is in a negative situation, the
best defense is almost always to walk away.
Some may think that it is running away, but I interpret this as taking
the high road, avoiding a truly destructive situation, and not stooping down to
their level. As someone who is only had a kidney transplant less than six months ago,
having a positive attitude is important.
I feel that given my priorities, it is not worth it to attempt to continue going to a place where I regularly experience
stress, especially if it is an extra-curricular activity. As much as I love my teacher and most of my hula sisters, I have a
new kidney to protect, and weekly stress and frustration will not be beneficial to it and my overall health.
I still have other activities
to enjoy, and will continue dancing hula, whether it is on my own or with a new
group. As Bruce Lee had said, “Walk on”.
